It's the end or a new beginning?

Before we all knew it, our faithful companion has slide pass us with it's consistent speed, ever readiness to cause changes in us n around us. It has never fail us - Time.

Ever heard of how there is an account where every creature on earth possess. Equally distributed amongst us, no one being favored more than the other. And, It's how we manage and utilize it that makes us prosper or "rich" in life.
An account of time.
If time = $, certainly that statement is valid.
As I reflect back on how this year has been for mi, it seems like I only vaguely remember how the same routine kept repeating over and over. This makes mi really sad... Sad that I didn't really manage to fulfill all my 2010' resolutions... And how my life has changed since I stop being as committed as I've used to be... "Oh come on, don't emote!" I've got to tell myself that to keep going on.
*~Upset, nervous, lonely, depress, remorseful, peaceful, anger, gladness, grateful, happy, excited, and so much more emotions unnamed. And all these can be summarize into one word - Life.

Love it or live with it.
I chose Love. Really, did I?

Interestingly, after writing all these, suddenly this sentence popped into my mind:-
Life : Live It For Elijah

Is it the end or the beginning? All boil down to choices we made in life. Thank u for reading~*

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*Jokes* of the day

Today is really a shaggy day for Niniko. Gonna share so to relieve some of my tension...

An embarrassing morning~*
Boarded the train and felt the "star attack" again. As i was standing, i dashed to the nearest handle and gripped on it tightly. Still it was too late, before i could react, i was already lying on someone besides mi... totally left right center~* and all i could remember was a guy offering a seat for mi, too weak to say anything... yes, blacked out again.
darn~ oh ya, the funny part was... while i was trying to tit my head downwards in hoping to soothe the giddiness by allowing some blood to flow to my head. (*cross finger, let it not be a myth). i slowly opened my eyes to realized there is a huge space in front of mi. Just as i thought to myself, "wa... so many people alighted?".
Then it hit mi that, they all thought i was going to puke... well... who wouldn't?

Ease at heart~*
Doc said my blood pressure was reali low, 80+... dun even know wat is the normal... (tried googled but oh well...) she gave mi some iron pills. but what i really benefited from the visit (despite near an hour wait), is advice that helped ease my worries. Which troubled mi for like days... But after the advice, I was so relieved~ *skip around happily*

Packed day~*
The reason for mi to crawled myself to work is because today is reali one of the busiest day of the month. There is simply no way that i can leave my dear colleague Hong mama in lurch to cover my shiii, i mean, work.
Thank God i pulled myself through.
At least it is a fruitful day, a close call~*

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sammi's new song

As per updated on how inspiring Sammi is with her come back. Glorifying God with her really powerful testimony. The lyrics of the songs are really touching:-

上帝早有预备

留下我的骄傲 吹熄我浮躁
让我知道我不知道 没必然的美好
在谷底才看到天很蓝很高
试炼我的煎熬 打击我炫耀
让我知道我不知道　
如何跟自己和好 在寂寞里打捞　
换取这拥抱假的真不了
上帝早有预备 残酷另有安慰
走过失意漆黑 风光却加倍明媚
上帝早有预备 忧郁我也不退畏
不懊悔 不气馁
试炼我的煎熬 打击我炫耀
让我知道我不知道　
如何跟自己和好 在寂寞里打捞　
换取这拥抱假的真不了
上帝早有预备 残酷另有安慰
走过失意漆黑 风光却加倍明媚
上帝早有预备 幸福我受之无愧
我敢追 我是谁
我是谁 比烟花更卑微
我是谁 却被你眷顾宝贝
我是谁 也许机会才能体会
一切早有预备
上帝早有预备 残酷另有安慰
走过失意漆黑 风光却加倍明媚
上帝早有预备 幸福我受之无愧
我敢追 我是谁 因为你 我无畏

Sammi 上帝早有预备



Poke off,
Niniko

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fruitful day~~*

Had a good breakfast with dad and then went shopping at Diaso. What I love the most is the time spent with my family. Makes me want to really love them. But it also makes me ponder on the things that I can give them is so limited. Which means I got to work harder on earning more. Sigh~ it's easier said than done. "it's not how much you earn, but how much you can save". Buhuuu... ヽ(；▽；)ノ yes... That's....

Cleaned up the house and my room are things that I really hate to do, yet feels very happy and satisfied after doing it. Isn't that oxymoron ?? Hmmm... Then kept my promise to mum on helping with her accounts data entries... But what I like the most is the feeling after accomplishing many things I wanna do, I realized I still have another half day left! It's good to utilize time fully~ *breath and smile* ＼(￣▽￣)／

What a beautiful day~~*
poke off,
Niniko

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times in life

There are times in life you just feel like lazing around... Thats the day today.... Had to take half day just so i'll not be deem as late... （ーー；）
Today totally no mood to work... Sometimes find some things overlapping... Always had this feeling that people only start to care when problem arise... Sometimes I wonder why I even give a damn...
But if I don't when things happen... U can't just escape responsibility... N its not like it's ur fault... Sigh.... That's life....

Let's chill n let the music roll:-



Poke off,
Frustrated

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Songs intro

While mummy was working in my room, she specially requested to listen to the songs that I've used to introduced to her. She described it as "I want the Thailand Chinese song" *chuckle* I think she meant hokkien Chinese. Since the first song I introduced from this artist was 神奇白马， a mixed hokkien(or rather Taiwan dialect) and chinese. It left a deep impression in her. (well who don't?! Keke... That was the reason I watched 超级新光大道3) By a very talented artist - 徐佳莹 I admire her talent alot. She wrote most of her songs at a young age (even during the competition!).

One that I've selected below is really interesting *smile* listen when u have the chance!
Listen


Poke off
Niniko


作词：徐佳莹
作曲：徐佳莹
编曲：李燕飞
制作人：贾敏恕

也许是喜欢吧　所以在你身边绕啊绕
我想他们都发现了　你里里外外包不住的好

但是只有我才知道　你害羞时候眉毛会翘的很高
只有我才闻得到　你低调的骄傲
不一定要天气好　也可能约我出去逛一逛
只有我才坐的到　你咖啡色的金旺

唉哟　怎么办　这样的甜蜜算不算
你专属我的VIP座位
唉哟　烦不烦　这样的甜蜜还看不出来
想大声宣布你是我的宝贝　宝贝　我决不让位

也许是喜欢吧　所以在你身边绕啊绕
我想他们都发现了　你里里外外包不住的好

但是只有我才知道　你害羞时候眉毛会翘的很高
只有我才闻得到　你低调的骄傲
不一定要天气好　也可能约我出去逛一逛
转载来自 ※Mojim.com　魔镜歌词网
只有我才坐的到　你咖啡色的金旺

唉哟　怎么办　这样的甜蜜算不算
你专属我的VIP座位
唉哟　烦不烦　这样的甜蜜还看不出来
想大声宣布你是我的宝贝　宝贝　我决不让位

看他们虎视眈眈扑了过来　视而不见我们的暧昧
真叫人急得像热锅上的蚂蚁

唉哟　怎么办　这样的甜蜜算不算
你专属我的VIP座位
唉哟　烦不烦　这样的甜蜜还看不出来
想大声宣布你是我的宝贝　宝贝

唉哟　怎么办　这样的甜蜜算不算
你专属我的VIP座位
唉哟　烦不烦　这样的甜蜜还看不出来
想大声宣布你是我的宝贝　宝贝　我决不让位

Testimony

Happen to see this video in my poly mate Aloy's FB. it's a really long but meaningful video. Really a great testimony for Him... On the life of Sammy the singer/actress and recently a writer. *thumbs up (*☻-☻*)

Sammy's interview

Crazy coward

Sometimes I've hoped that nobody can see me.

Don't know what it means to hide within your own cowardly shell? That's how it can be describe:

Yes, I have to hide.

I never knew it's so hard to face the things that I've been trying so hard to avoid... The unbearable feeling of guilt and pain really really hurt... Is this what it means? When you try so hard to be away from the light, your eyes hurt when you look at it again... The only love that I have in life, yet i've chosen to turn my back towards. I have been wondering real hard what love means. I've began to understand what love really is. That I can't stop thinking about it, not even a single day.... It is irrational and almost insane.

This is how it feels.
And yes, I am a coward.

Crazy

Promises?

I've started writing journal once again. The familiar book given by important people who used to b in my life and that I've regarded as precious in the past. I've almost forgotten that I've enjoyed the feeling of gripping my pen... Thus I promise myself that I would start writing it again, and preferably everyday; which I've even set daily alarm at 11pm for it. I know how this sounds, and just tasted the reality... With the realization that writing requires inspiration too... (oh
or am I'm juz plain occupied with my vampires dairies...)

The main purpose of writing was to help me align my thoughts once more... Used to do that a lot in the past... Because it feels really good to clear out all the fogs in the mind... A good time for self reflections too.,, N I like the feeling of being in control of myself, better focus, and to think more before I let my emotions jump into conclusions all the time, like...saying the wrong things at the wrong time... being blunt doesn't mean others having to fall short because of it...

Promises are merely words when it's not kept...

Oh well... *yawn
Poke off
Niniko(*☻-☻*)

Hong kong trip

Finally, I fulfilled my dream to sit in an airplane! Wat a small dream... But to me, I realized I love the feeling of looking out of the window from the plane. It's an unexplainable experience. I know how tired it is for my Sis to work up there... She's literally walking from one place to another.
Talking abt my Sis, she is the best sister ever. She sacrificed her own resting time to ensure both myself n my mum (the first plane traveller) to enjoy our trip. She is really tired, having to rush for her flight the day after we touched down Singapore. I really thank God for my Sis and my family. No one is as blessed as I am. Yet I'm always taking things for granted. I realized how easy it is for mi to take things for granted. （ーー；）

Nevertheless, I love my family, everybit of it. The culture is really different in HK. Not really used to it, especially their service. Day 2 - i fell sick, had flu n sore eyes for goodness sake. Absolutely spoilsport. But struggled through even though i felt so much to just sleep in bed the whole day. But i can't disappoint my family n i m not going to waste my day there. Bought some stuff there, overall a good shopping trip. Went to the peak n had great fun taking pictures with all the stars at the wax museum! Some look really real...

Went Disney land on the 3rd day, it was really an extremely warm weather. But it's so much better than rain. It is really fun, I love my Sis, she take care of everything irregardless of how tired she felt and she still hv to put off my kids temper (guilty). She is really amazing.

Last half day at HK - the feeling of mixed emotions slowly set in, realization tat I'm really at HK n going to leave the place makes mi really sad... Emotional... But still, have to face reality when we have to. Guess the withdrawal syndrome will take sometime to clear...

Poke off,
Niniko ＿φ(￣ー￣ )

dreams

These few nights I've been having dreams of memories from the past... Some which I cried so hard that I even woke up 6am in de morning... The people that are no longer around... Never knew I was so attached to it.... Was even wondering are You trying to tell me something through these dreams? I can still remember what I see in the dreams... Some really pleasant, some only bring fear... Perhaps it's what I hope for yet having no courage to go for it...

Still, back to reality, life would be much better when one is willing to work extra hard... The real fruit of fulfillment n satisfaction is at least what I hope to achieve in life.
I thank You for the life that I'm having, with great family who supports unconditionally. Nevertheless this is only the beginning, before more ugly realities unveal itself...

Poke off,
Winnie

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Niniko Express

Every working morning, panting to office, the first thing that came into hearing would be the "delighting you always music", and at times, some reports by our own canon express... doing the routines daily do really make things pretty mundane....

it's a night of emote....

This song is realli nice to emote on:

Listen

我怎麽一夜之间像被打垮了 
狼狈 沉默 放空 泪光 胡渣 心痛
我不能跟朋友说 你做的事让他们觉得
你是坏的

你怎麽变得让我不认识你了 
欺骗 自私 辩驳 嘴角 眼神 冷漠
我强忍爱流血了 但承受不了冤枉的痛 
你的心变了还说 是我的错 

心存报复是危险的念头
伤害你伤害自己 只会让我可悲透了 
找新的爱伪装幸福 却假的更寂寞 
封锁关系不去比较才能愈合
念念不忘是危险的念头
世界在向前翻滚 没有谁能倒退着走
扭曲自尊挽留才懂
一厢情愿能够 伤亡多惨重

罗志祥 - 危险的念头


lol... Some of Show's songs really speaks very well emotionally.....


like 搞笑 and many more...


hmmm... maybe it's a night to emote....
it's been a busy week, but fast and furious too... fulfilling is the best aftermath even though it's pretty draining at times.... Sometimes i wonder.... whether i'm living my life as an empty shell now... with no source of electricity to plug myself in.... many other substitution came in place, yet am i really happy? 


"Happiness is a moment
Joy last forever"

Yet again, it forever lies with a choice....
Typed off,
Niniko

work overseas

Recently I had this declaration to go work overseas... I want to find myself a job in Taiwan. Besides to experience the difference in culture, I want to learn to be more independent...

I know how difficult it'll be to be overseas, being alone with no one to be there to lean on to if I really need help. It'll be all by myself... But I really want to experience that, and I know that is also the only way I can really understand the meaning to grow stronger in my character.

I believe my mum will be so upset about it... Without me around... But still I'm determine to go work for a few years starting from year 2011/12.

Beside all the reasons that I want to go work overseas, I believe I desire for a change... It seems like I'm living a routine life and i'm getting tired of it. Perhaps going away for a while will make me grow abit more... That's a good thing of being single. I do not have much to worry besides my mum...
Hope this will come to pass soon.

Poke off
Nini

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valentine's day

Well juz finished watching a movie online... Name Valentine's Day! Not sure whether it's an old or new show... But it certainly is a very nice show to catch. It's about various small little relationships between friends who are connected with each other somehow. From de youngest love from de cutesy little boy to de oldest man and lady... All things happened within de day itself! Many actors cast in this show... Oh gosh I never remember their names... De man who acts in de latest superman series, whom I presumed to b de main lead (yes very good looking indeed lol...), and de very pretty lady as de female lead... (I swear I've seen her movie somewhere but my brain is juz not working... Sorry!) n, yes Julia Robert is in de show, n whoo so many familar faces! Pls forgive me on de names,(I'll b truly satisfied to just remember de names of new people I've met in real life!) >_< anyway u got to watch it to know ya.. Hope u'll like it too.

Anyway it juz feels motivated to love n be in love after watching this movie! Haha not that I'm looking for it, although my parents are like more anxious than I am... *rolleyes That's a whole different story... Anyway back to de show, It juz really refreshes me on de importance of being really honest with our feelings. De importance of honesty in a relationship, any relationship... (family, friends, BGR...)

I've learnt it de hard way, n also realised de truth about de quote on how "broken mirrors no matter how hard it's mended, it always contain cracks"... And dishonesty in a relationship breaks de mirror... Sigh... Yet sometimes de hardest things to do in life is to be honest; with people you love especially, and even with ourselves. (people who lives in denial) Grrrrr... Still learning to b more honest with my feelings too... But after u look back, u'll be ao glad u've been honest, no matter what de outcome is... Coz true love corrects... N de truth hurts at times...

Feels good after letting this all out!
Good nite... Thanks to whoever who endured by reading my post... Or to none at all!

Endurance is a precious fruit... Arghhh I'm blabbering again!

I like my day today!
Poked off,
Winnie

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Today seems like war...

Goodness.... Carrying my half awaken body to work today after de torture from de night before's insomnia was bad enuff... In office- Having to face arrows from de Indians n indo nearly killed me... Was blasted with meetings one after n another de whole morning! I need a HUGE kitkat!!! 

Actually i quite enjoyed myself in de meeting (despite もりもと-san's huge fireblot on us, from de complains from de Indians) he is really a nice boss! My fav Jap boss so far! Very real n when it comes to work, he gave his best! After de flame n de tense armosphere, he secretly passed mint gums to me n oso passed written notes in de midst saying he was hungry~ it was hilarious... n i returned by promising to bring snacks de next time round... funny... That really ease me alot, since it's de first time I join de meeting eversince my change of jobscope with all de bosses around...I learnt more dis time round... On our product and market situation...

Still...
Find it quite tough to focus on my new jobscope fully... (which I really look forward to..) really feeling de pressure of having to jaggle with many urgent stuff and at de same time, worrying for de new gal... Since there're still much for her to catch up... I'm getting impatient I think, at such a time... When I felt pressurized... :(

But things will be better Tmr!  *believe believe!! がんばりましょ！

Poke off
Nini

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sighing...

"Lord You are always here with me
There is no changing God in thee
You are the same yesterday and today and forevermore
Here on Your promises I stand
You hold my future in Your hands
My solid rock, Almighty God
I worship You" - Lord You are always here with me

Whenever I sang this I will tear uncontrolablly... I know I'm not faithful as His daughter, yet He is always faithful...

"Who am I, that You would know me from the start, set me apart,
Who am I, that You would place eternalty into my heart" - One life, One love

Who am I that I deserve all de love and grace... When I can't say that I have only One love in my love... Sigh...



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stressful period

Eversince de change of jobscope (which I'm looking forward to), just that in these midst of transition phase, I realised stress came knocking on my door, one after another... "They are piling up...." Says my unconscious mind.... Sigh... Realised also that i get sick whenever I get stressed up... Else I'm rarely sick (*touch wood)... 

Well, it's a good chance to train myself too! I must stop giving myself stress... I remember Pastors once mentioned in de sermon, juz tell ourselves to stop feeling a certain way and it shall be done. Simply juz control our emotions n stop feeling negative! I shall really work on that especially this coming weeks n months. I really hope de new gal can catch up fast n claim de 'baby' as her own soon... Well I shall believe n trust in her!

Can't seems to get to sleep... Which is absolutely rare for me... 

I guess I vent my stress de best through writting.... My mum is still at her majong session! Well i'm used to being alone at home... Just hope that she'll be able to wake up for work tmr morning....

Haven been settling down to align my thoughts... I know I can do that to gain some balance in my mind... But never in my spirit... It can only be fulfill by de One and only... Sigh...

Well, nitez starless nite...
Poke off
Winnie

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chalet @downtown east

Took half day leave today to celebrate my bro in law's bday! Haven reali had chalet that i really stay over night to have fun... Eversince few years ago...

Think I really need a short break like this ever since I started work... Been doing non stop especially this few months. Don't hate it, coz I enjoy what I'm doin now, but there were certainly times I felt stressed. Well, stress is what we put in our mind... Thus having a short break really helps us walk further in life....

Haha... Tat's all for today!
Poke off,
Winnie

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yes! iblogger!

Yes! Finally I found tis app where I can blog at any time and anywhere! Yuhuuu! This is once again my hundred time declaring that my blog is alive! Or barely alive! Haha....

Juz had a haircut at jeanyip (opps.. Got a feeling that I spelled wrongly...). Then had a great time spent wif Eleanor having Korean + chinese + jap snacks! Hehe... Grilled mushroom (5*****) + snackssss from old changkee + sushi!!! Man, looks alot now... Darn... How to lose weight!!! (>_<)

But I enjoy snacking like tat n chat wif Eleanor! Keke... Think we flow really well! :) so glad to b working at Canon, especially when politics are almost none.. (or hv I failed to noticed?) keke who cares! 快乐就好！ 嬉しね〜

Not bad, I can type pretty fast with my 2nd finger! Hee! じゃまた明日！

Poke off,
Nini

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