dreams

These few nights I've been having dreams of memories from the past... Some which I cried so hard that I even woke up 6am in de morning... The people that are no longer around... Never knew I was so attached to it.... Was even wondering are You trying to tell me something through these dreams? I can still remember what I see in the dreams... Some really pleasant, some only bring fear... Perhaps it's what I hope for yet having no courage to go for it...

Still, back to reality, life would be much better when one is willing to work extra hard... The real fruit of fulfillment n satisfaction is at least what I hope to achieve in life.
I thank You for the life that I'm having, with great family who supports unconditionally. Nevertheless this is only the beginning, before more ugly realities unveal itself...

Poke off,
Winnie

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Niniko Express

Every working morning, panting to office, the first thing that came into hearing would be the "delighting you always music", and at times, some reports by our own canon express... doing the routines daily do really make things pretty mundane....

it's a night of emote....

This song is realli nice to emote on:

Listen

我怎麽一夜之间像被打垮了 
狼狈 沉默 放空 泪光 胡渣 心痛
我不能跟朋友说 你做的事让他们觉得
你是坏的

你怎麽变得让我不认识你了 
欺骗 自私 辩驳 嘴角 眼神 冷漠
我强忍爱流血了 但承受不了冤枉的痛 
你的心变了还说 是我的错 

心存报复是危险的念头
伤害你伤害自己 只会让我可悲透了 
找新的爱伪装幸福 却假的更寂寞 
封锁关系不去比较才能愈合
念念不忘是危险的念头
世界在向前翻滚 没有谁能倒退着走
扭曲自尊挽留才懂
一厢情愿能够 伤亡多惨重

罗志祥 - 危险的念头


lol... Some of Show's songs really speaks very well emotionally.....


like 搞笑 and many more...


hmmm... maybe it's a night to emote....
it's been a busy week, but fast and furious too... fulfilling is the best aftermath even though it's pretty draining at times.... Sometimes i wonder.... whether i'm living my life as an empty shell now... with no source of electricity to plug myself in.... many other substitution came in place, yet am i really happy? 


"Happiness is a moment
Joy last forever"

Yet again, it forever lies with a choice....
Typed off,
Niniko

work overseas

Recently I had this declaration to go work overseas... I want to find myself a job in Taiwan. Besides to experience the difference in culture, I want to learn to be more independent...

I know how difficult it'll be to be overseas, being alone with no one to be there to lean on to if I really need help. It'll be all by myself... But I really want to experience that, and I know that is also the only way I can really understand the meaning to grow stronger in my character.

I believe my mum will be so upset about it... Without me around... But still I'm determine to go work for a few years starting from year 2011/12.

Beside all the reasons that I want to go work overseas, I believe I desire for a change... It seems like I'm living a routine life and i'm getting tired of it. Perhaps going away for a while will make me grow abit more... That's a good thing of being single. I do not have much to worry besides my mum...
Hope this will come to pass soon.

Poke off
Nini

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valentine's day

Well juz finished watching a movie online... Name Valentine's Day! Not sure whether it's an old or new show... But it certainly is a very nice show to catch. It's about various small little relationships between friends who are connected with each other somehow. From de youngest love from de cutesy little boy to de oldest man and lady... All things happened within de day itself! Many actors cast in this show... Oh gosh I never remember their names... De man who acts in de latest superman series, whom I presumed to b de main lead (yes very good looking indeed lol...), and de very pretty lady as de female lead... (I swear I've seen her movie somewhere but my brain is juz not working... Sorry!) n, yes Julia Robert is in de show, n whoo so many familar faces! Pls forgive me on de names,(I'll b truly satisfied to just remember de names of new people I've met in real life!) >_< anyway u got to watch it to know ya.. Hope u'll like it too.

Anyway it juz feels motivated to love n be in love after watching this movie! Haha not that I'm looking for it, although my parents are like more anxious than I am... *rolleyes That's a whole different story... Anyway back to de show, It juz really refreshes me on de importance of being really honest with our feelings. De importance of honesty in a relationship, any relationship... (family, friends, BGR...)

I've learnt it de hard way, n also realised de truth about de quote on how "broken mirrors no matter how hard it's mended, it always contain cracks"... And dishonesty in a relationship breaks de mirror... Sigh... Yet sometimes de hardest things to do in life is to be honest; with people you love especially, and even with ourselves. (people who lives in denial) Grrrrr... Still learning to b more honest with my feelings too... But after u look back, u'll be ao glad u've been honest, no matter what de outcome is... Coz true love corrects... N de truth hurts at times...

Feels good after letting this all out!
Good nite... Thanks to whoever who endured by reading my post... Or to none at all!

Endurance is a precious fruit... Arghhh I'm blabbering again!

I like my day today!
Poked off,
Winnie

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Today seems like war...

Goodness.... Carrying my half awaken body to work today after de torture from de night before's insomnia was bad enuff... In office- Having to face arrows from de Indians n indo nearly killed me... Was blasted with meetings one after n another de whole morning! I need a HUGE kitkat!!! 

Actually i quite enjoyed myself in de meeting (despite もりもと-san's huge fireblot on us, from de complains from de Indians) he is really a nice boss! My fav Jap boss so far! Very real n when it comes to work, he gave his best! After de flame n de tense armosphere, he secretly passed mint gums to me n oso passed written notes in de midst saying he was hungry~ it was hilarious... n i returned by promising to bring snacks de next time round... funny... That really ease me alot, since it's de first time I join de meeting eversince my change of jobscope with all de bosses around...I learnt more dis time round... On our product and market situation...

Still...
Find it quite tough to focus on my new jobscope fully... (which I really look forward to..) really feeling de pressure of having to jaggle with many urgent stuff and at de same time, worrying for de new gal... Since there're still much for her to catch up... I'm getting impatient I think, at such a time... When I felt pressurized... :(

But things will be better Tmr!  *believe believe!! がんばりましょ！

Poke off
Nini

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sighing...

"Lord You are always here with me
There is no changing God in thee
You are the same yesterday and today and forevermore
Here on Your promises I stand
You hold my future in Your hands
My solid rock, Almighty God
I worship You" - Lord You are always here with me

Whenever I sang this I will tear uncontrolablly... I know I'm not faithful as His daughter, yet He is always faithful...

"Who am I, that You would know me from the start, set me apart,
Who am I, that You would place eternalty into my heart" - One life, One love

Who am I that I deserve all de love and grace... When I can't say that I have only One love in my love... Sigh...



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stressful period

Eversince de change of jobscope (which I'm looking forward to), just that in these midst of transition phase, I realised stress came knocking on my door, one after another... "They are piling up...." Says my unconscious mind.... Sigh... Realised also that i get sick whenever I get stressed up... Else I'm rarely sick (*touch wood)... 

Well, it's a good chance to train myself too! I must stop giving myself stress... I remember Pastors once mentioned in de sermon, juz tell ourselves to stop feeling a certain way and it shall be done. Simply juz control our emotions n stop feeling negative! I shall really work on that especially this coming weeks n months. I really hope de new gal can catch up fast n claim de 'baby' as her own soon... Well I shall believe n trust in her!

Can't seems to get to sleep... Which is absolutely rare for me... 

I guess I vent my stress de best through writting.... My mum is still at her majong session! Well i'm used to being alone at home... Just hope that she'll be able to wake up for work tmr morning....

Haven been settling down to align my thoughts... I know I can do that to gain some balance in my mind... But never in my spirit... It can only be fulfill by de One and only... Sigh...

Well, nitez starless nite...
Poke off
Winnie

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chalet @downtown east

Took half day leave today to celebrate my bro in law's bday! Haven reali had chalet that i really stay over night to have fun... Eversince few years ago...

Think I really need a short break like this ever since I started work... Been doing non stop especially this few months. Don't hate it, coz I enjoy what I'm doin now, but there were certainly times I felt stressed. Well, stress is what we put in our mind... Thus having a short break really helps us walk further in life....

Haha... Tat's all for today!
Poke off,
Winnie

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yes! iblogger!

Yes! Finally I found tis app where I can blog at any time and anywhere! Yuhuuu! This is once again my hundred time declaring that my blog is alive! Or barely alive! Haha....

Juz had a haircut at jeanyip (opps.. Got a feeling that I spelled wrongly...). Then had a great time spent wif Eleanor having Korean + chinese + jap snacks! Hehe... Grilled mushroom (5*****) + snackssss from old changkee + sushi!!! Man, looks alot now... Darn... How to lose weight!!! (>_<)

But I enjoy snacking like tat n chat wif Eleanor! Keke... Think we flow really well! :) so glad to b working at Canon, especially when politics are almost none.. (or hv I failed to noticed?) keke who cares! 快乐就好！ 嬉しね〜

Not bad, I can type pretty fast with my 2nd finger! Hee! じゃまた明日！

Poke off,
Nini

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Nice show to watch :D

Recommended show of the year:

1）下一站 的幸福。。。
2）海派甜心